Mortality is one of the things that gives me hope. I never want to live forever; eternity is nauseating. I like knowing that someday, none of this will matter; sooner or later, I won't have to have to deal with anyone. I like knowing that someday, I won't have to think or feel, won't have to decide, I'll simply lose consciousness for good, cease to exist. I like clear-cut endings, which is why I resist the possibility of life after death. It's terrifying to think even of paradise, of having to go on once I'm fed up with the world.